Sunwise and widdershins! Only heard the term when I met some witches. IRL witches! It’s a thing.

It feels like being safe, and wrapped in a cocoon of warmth. That you never have to regret.

Portal?

Think about the reasons behind your feelings. If it is shyness and some anxiety around the social aspect of it, that’s one thing. If there is a deeper reason why you might feel uncomfortable with these people or why they might reject you, that’s something else to acknowledge. Good luck.