I like the way you phrase “asymptomatically approaching normal” 👍. I think i know the feeling, almost like you have to iterate a brand new personality to interact with the world. Previous normal is just kind of shattered into fragments that inform the new normal, but there’s a real uncomfortable space in between.
Ive been “blessed” with many experiences i describe as spiritual.
Well, being around death was pretty cerebral for one. Felt sad obviously, but like a full awareness my life had suddenly changed. You sure appreciate things differently.
Psychedelics did (…or do?) the trick in my case, but your mileage may vary, what can i say. Buyer beware. I come away with profound insights that help me cultivate a sense of, or develop a “relationship” with, you know… the divine. It feels like a trip, man. And then afterwards life still seems to confirm its trippiness.
Magick is another thing i might say triggered a spiritual experience. My first real “spell” was a simple chaos magick sigil casting experiment, and it blew my mind. I had what felt like a full blown psychedelic experience from that, even though i wasn’t on anything.
Also, at the rehab i went to (p m unrelated, but not not part of my experience), they offered “Holotropic Breathwork”. The things i experienced in that state while totally sober were some of the most viscerally profound, and life-changing intensities I’ve gone thru. Far out.
Yoga & meditation are also good catalyst’s. I got those as tools in rehab, too. Even with shoddy commitment to them, they seem to continue deepening the whole syndrome.
Shit can still suck but u learn to roll with it, cuz we’re all one thing experiencing itself,… so i guess it’s fine. 🤷
I have a random fun fact about beelzebub…
There’s some dispute, but Baal zebub seems to have been a derogatory term used by ancient israelites against the philistine deity, Ba’al (lord), calling him baal zebub, or the lord of flies.
Occult circles have demonized the figure over time, but yea. Ancient racists who thought of the philistines as pests, and blatantly insulted their religion by renaming their lord to ‘lord of the flies’.