• TrickDacy@lemmy.world
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    10 months ago

    I was bullied enough to understand how someone would think for a moment about hurting their bullies like that… maybe even some of the rich kids who laughed. But murdering indiscriminately? It’s a whole different mentally deranged thing to consider

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      10 months ago

      This, i was broken enough to want to destroy all the fuckingn bullies that made my life a hell, but I would never hurt anyone else.

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      10 months ago

      I was bullied from grades 3 halfway thru 12. In grade 9 it began to get physical. In grade 12 it stopped being physical after my bully, a weightlifter and football player, pulled back a basketball and threw it with all his strength at the back of my head in gym. I broke his nose.

      I am not particularly proud of it. I am not bragging. Though multiple times throughout the years I wondered how no one noticed. As the years went on I saw other students look away, if they weren’t laughing at me. I then began to notice the rare teacher look once and then act like they saw nothing.

      To me, what some of these kids do doesn’t seem like that much of a stretch. I think this way because of my experiences, amongst other family issues that were also happening. While I am not wholly certain, when I dig deep, it’s possible one of the key reasons nothing more happened is because after I snapped it all stopped.

      The line is thinner than you realize, I think.

      Funny thing is, now that I’m older, I understand that I handled everything well by the perspective of people who believe the wall of “don’t hurt others” doesn’t have a door in it. Just a ton of trauma and general mistrust for anyone who happens to be male and anyone in authority, and a very deep dislike for injustice and preventable incidents.

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      10 months ago

      I think when you feel entitled and think everyone in school is looking and laughing at you. Ya, it’s probably not indiscriminately in this person’s eye.

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        10 months ago

        it’s probably not indiscriminately in this person’s eye.

        The aforementioned mental disorder ^